Have you ever had one of those days where you wake up, and you realize you feel different? Like something fell away during the night, or was finally rotated properly and fell into position. Something small, but something that had been plaguing you or holding you back for a long time. And it’s not usually something you can readily identify what it was, or how it’s different now. But you know, you’re sure, that its different now, in a good important way.

That’s what happened to me this morning. Well actually, it happened about an hour after I woke up. While I was listening to the title track of Andrew WK’s masterpiece album “I Get Wet”. There I was, storming up 8th Ave, the sea of faces parting in front of me, and then BAM! It just struck me. And there I was, and it was right and good.

A few minutes later, after being exhorted by the final track to “Don’t stop living in the red” I arrived at work, about 40 minutes earlier than usual. Everyone was outside congregated around the food truck, just having a good time. So I bought a soaking wet ice cold Raspberry Snapple Ice Tea, and joined in the party.

I’d like to refer to a second, to an entry in Bret’s increasingly marvelous weblog, where he states that “Happiness is a choice.” I wholeheartedly agree with this, and would like to tack on a rider, which says something to the effect of “Every moment of your life up until this point has been preparing you for the point that you’re at right now.” Cause I think sometimes, you end up in places, where it seems kind of random, and you feel maybe unprepared or something. But that’s stupid. I believe that you write your own ticket, and that you prepare yourself for the kind of life you want to lead (whether or not you ultimately live up to that, is also your choice). So, that means, what are you preparing yourself for right now, by what you’re doing or not doing? Just something to keep in mind, I think

It also reminds me something I read online somewhere recently, where some woman was talking about how causality is a myth. Bear with me a second, because this is gonna sound like hooey if you’re locked in some completely rational mindset. Just allow it to filter into you for a minute, because its a really intriguing program to let run in your mind. Anyway, she says something about how causes don’t produce effects. But how effects produce causes. I know, i know. It’s whack, right? But what I think shes sort of saying is that events exist, like, some sort of islands in “time-space” if you will. And that they send out ripples around them, which kind of make everything within a certain proximity bend according to them. If you want to think of it like an island in the ocean. Its like waves don’t cause islands to occur, although they may influence the shape of their contours. And islands don’t exactly cause waves to happen, but they do change the pattern of waves around them.

Actually, I’m not altogether sure if I’m making my point or just babbling incoherently and contradicting myself (I haven’t eaten in 24 hours, and slept for a really really really long time last night, so everything is slightly askew for me right now). But I also think, that some of the best most important stuff can’t be talked about adequately unless you jump headlong into the contradictions, cause you’re trying to throw down the gates guarded by the rational mind.

Yeah, so I was just thinking, about events bending space-time around them. Isn’t that sort of like how they define gravity nowadays? Like you have objects with mass, and they like bend space-time around them? Something like that. I have never heard anybody explicitly apply that concept to an event (an object made of time?) though, rather than to an object made of matter. I mean, I’m sure I’m not the first, but it’s a new idea to me, which I think has a lot of useful potential to it in my mind.