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And when I closed my eyes, the fireworks only multiplied.



Hi everybody. Hi. So! Here it is, the 4th of July…. hooray! Actually, I had a really fun day. I got to do the following things:

  • Wake up early
  • Ride lots of trains
  • Drink exactly one million beers
  • Rock a little baby to sleep in my arms (being my niece, Brenna)
  • Play with and get slobbered on by a huge black puppy named Bailey
  • Eat grilled meats
  • Get a stomach ache
  • Watch fireworks from my fire escape
  • Talk on the phone with my drunken friends
  • Lay on the couch

    Um, yeah, I’m sure there were others… It seems like one million and one things happened, not just today, but this past week. Like this past week has just been amazing and action packed in so many fun and unexpected ways. So far there were two best parts of my day:

    First was holding Brenna while she fell asleep. She’s very funny, and that was the first time I met her. She has a little funny shaped mouth and a weird little triangular tongue. Anyway, as soon as Rachel put her into my arms, it was like my body went on autopilot, it was funny. I guess part of it was just me remembering taking care of my little sister Katie, who was born when I was eight or something. But I think also a lot of it was just instinctual reaction. It was great. I immediately knew where to put my arms to support her, and rocked her off to sleep. It’s funny, cause like, when you’re holding a baby trying to get them to go to sleep, I feel like its almost as though you start pumping out like these sleep waves or something. Its weird, cause I almost rocked myself right to sleep too.

    Second best part of today, was I was back here all by my lonesome out of the fire escape, looking out over the rooftops towards Manhattan. Fireworks are always fun, but not as fun by yourself, but anyway, I came back inside, and was laying back on the couch with my eyes closed. And to my surprise and delight, as soon as my eyelids shut, the fireworks kept going behind them. They just kept multiplying until they filled up my whole interior field of vision, and then moved past that too, until it seemed like they were all around me, and inside of me. And the feeling lasted and lasted. And I think it is very much appropriate and symbolic to how I feel right now, in a much larger sense.

    Spectacular.







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