Hi. I am reading more of my little book about how everything is really a hologram. Pretty sweet stuff. It’s just a touch heavy on the “let me show you with some statistics and studies” type shit, but not TOO bad. I’ve read books about paranormal crap where its just full of percentages and completely worthless. This guy seems pretty straight up though.

The chapter I’m reading right now is about out of body and near death experiences. Crap like that. Something I’ve always been interested in, especially out of body experiences (OBE’s). I can’t say that I’ve ever had one, but I also can’t say that I’ve never tried. Cause of course I did. Has anyone not tried? Maybe I’m just a weirdo. I used to always try really hard to change the color of traffic lights while sitting in the car with my mom as a kid, or another favorite of mine for a little while was to try to extinguish altar candles while sitting in Church. Maybe all this stuff was just me being bored. I don’t know. But in any event, those were key times to try shit out. Never had any success though, with any of those, like I said.

It’s like swimming, I think. Well, to me anyway. I don’t know how to swim, cause I got scared of it as a kid, cause I fell into a pool once, and went down down down… Actually, hey wait! That’s the one time that I may have actually left my body, because I have a memory of looking at myself from outside myself. And that’s the only one like that I have. So, anyway, back to that: in my dreams, I can swim easily and effortlessly. It’s never been an issue, and I know that sooner or later, I’ll just get into a pool or something, and swim away, cause I’ve known how to do it all along. I feel like thats a pretty good analogy for a lot of this psychic sort of shit - that somewhere somehow I already know how to do it, but that I have to keep rotating the Rubix Cube just right until all the colors line up, and then BAM!

I remember once, when I was a teenager or something, I somehow furtively obtained one of those cheesy ass books on astral projection, but never got too far with it. I hate how all those books have all those lame exercises and stuff. I have such a low tolerance for cheesy new age crap - which may come as a surprise, having read this entry thus far. But it’s true. The mystical shit that I’m into is extremely specific and keyed into a certain kind of frequency for me to make any sort of thing out of it. Otherwise it just bounces off, or I consider it garbage.

So, anyway, I was thinking about trying to find some of the good-style information about it online, and maybe throw you some links if I find anything that I like. Oh yeah, the other thing about OBE’s is that my ex-girlfriend Melanie said she knew how to have them, and that it was like “standing up inside your chest.” That image never helped me any though. I think its the sort of thing that you have to figure out the right controller combination for yourself. Yeah, thats right: controller combination. Like in a video game! See, that makes some kind of sense to me. Anyway, let’s get this party started!