(This started out as an email to my friend john, but then, I decided it was more of a blog entry because of the length and non-private nature of it)

guess whos coming off of definitely being verifiably stoned off salvia. its me! you guessed it. the first bowl did nothing. the second bowl, well it did something. and then i was like, well, ive already gotten started, so i put together one and a half more bowls. bear in mind these arent huge well packed bowls. these are my poorly done, pack another couple bowls in the dark type bowls. not that i know how to pack bowls anyway. but yeah! the thing is, like you gotta get a REAL hit off it. i was doing it wrong before, and getting spooked too quick when a real hit was about to come down the pipe. i got the better part of two of those real big hits and a few smaller hits. and then i went into what’s called stage three of the salvia rating scale:

Level - 3 “L” stands for LIGHT visionary state.” Closed eye visuals (clear imagery with eyes closed: fractal patterns, vinelike and geometric patterns, visions of objects and designs). The imagery is often two dimensional. If open eyed visual effects occur these are usually vague and fleeting. At this level phenomena similar to the hypnagogic phenomena that some people experience at sleep onset occur. At this level visions are experienced as ‘eye candy’ but are not confused with reality.

i was towards the end of stage 3 i’d say, cause i had some of the items from stage 4 starting to happen. i heard some voices, and like my interior dialogue was saying a lot of strange words that didn’t make any sense that i can remember. and the things i was saying in my head were very rhythmic and possibly rhymed in some kind of way. and i remember the impression of other people. when i was putting together maybe the third bowl, i remember getting the distinct impression - now, not actual feeling that i really was, but a sort of impression or knowledge of it - that i was at some sort of sandy area by a river, and there was something to do with canoes, and someone wanted me to make sure something about “mother” only it wasn’t my mother they were talking about. and they weren’t really talking at all. it was more of an impression like i said.

and the feeling of it, it definitely overtakes your body, and very quickly. your arms and legs start feeling kind of poofy but also sort of distant, and i could kind of feel a vague sensation moving through the extremities towards my body. i kept my eyes closed for most of it (when I wasn’t packing bowls) and saw lots of visuals. just like they said, i saw geometric patterns, swirling vines, and also this sort of really thick big caterpillary kind of pattern that was most definitely alive in some sense. I would wager this was some kind of aspect of the plant itself. It’s a very nice plant, and very very different from weed, with a different agenda and different sort of relationships with people, if that makes any sense.

i also remember seeing after that, this sort of geometric 3-d abstraction of this sort of horse, sort of chess piece knight laying on its back, chest rising and falling with its breaths, and i laughed to myself cause i realized that was me, in some other aspect, and that there were probably a lot of other things that i was/am, but just didnt see them or werent aware of normally.

i eventually centered myself within all this, because i wanted to try and leave my body. but i’ve still not worked out how to do that. this was by far the closest i’ve ever gotten. My body was totally relaxed, and i could feel my “self” sort of overlaid but distinct from my body. I just didn’t know how to move it independently of my body. I know I could have though, cause I was right there. I could feel it.

After a little while feeling what that was like, I decided to get up for real and come back to the world. All told it was a very nicem very pleasant experience, and now that I know what it is I’m looking for, it will be a lot easier to get back there. And then take it to the next level, where you supposedly go on shamanic journeys and stuff. Thats guaranteed to be cool.