I talked about this for a while with John last night, over a few games of pool, played at Johnny C’s in Cockeysville. I had two games of clarity, and the rest were riddled with outrageous misses.

Anyway, to cut right to the chase… I’m thinking of sticking around in Baltimore for a while longer. But nothing’s been decided.

John knows me well enough to have been able to explain it to me, rather than me having to explain it to him. I basically hated living in New York. It was just super fucking lonely and more or less miserable. The idea of travelling cross-country became this huge mental escape for me. Sort of a release valve for everything that was and wasn’t going on there. And it seemed vitally important that I get “on the road” as soon as possible.

But now, here I am in Baltimore. Surrounded by friends, dating an awesome girl, having fun and living cheaply. This whole idea of escaping and galavanting off into the sunset has been steadily fading from my awareness. Cause after a month and some change, I have kind of a life here established. At first, I didn’t think I wanted to start a life here, that I was just passing through. But then a life sort of just started itself around me. And it’s really good.

So now I’m reconsidering everything. Feeling out what I really want and need right now. Looking at different alternatives for how to make all that happen. I’ll keep you posted, and all interested parties will be notified when I have reached a decision.