That’s the only way to have anything really happen. With creativity. With writing. I’ve been writing a lot of free-association stuff lately. More than I’ve published on this site. Some of it’s just so weird and vile that I don’t really care to show anyone. It’s fun though. You have to just let everything through in order to get anywhere. It’s like a waking dream. You put yourself in the back seat and just let it go. You don’t really get to decide where you go or how you get there. Your job is pretty much just to take notes as quickly as you possibly fucking can. The whole thing is really propelled by your powers of observation and by your ability to shut up and get out of the way. I see a lot of patterns emerging. Lots of weird mythic undertones and characters I don’t yet understand. Blended with memories which I hadn’t realized how important they were. Ones I hadn’t thought about since they happened. I like how it’s changing my writing. Slowly letting these other sorts of things seep in. In terms of forbidden content and structures. And how to follow chains of description. And letting actions happen in your writing, rather than trying to construct them. I’m going to do a lot more of it. It puts me into quite a little trance while I’m doing it. And after. I like it. It’s not just changing my writing either. It’s some sort of weird tool to change your brain. Yeah. Yeah, that’s right.