I have been meaning to write something up about this to clarify my own thoughts anyway, so I will send you an email later.

When religions are born, they are invariably heretical by the local standards as their founders reify the transcendent into symbolic language “shocking” enough to mean something.

This is very interesting to me. Any additional thoughts on that process?

Is a tornado, a bunch of dirt and debris that decided to get together and swirl around?

Is a wave in the ocean a bunch of water and sand and plankton, that decided to get together and take a ride towards shore?

Yes? Actually, I think the “deciding” factor might better be thought of as fairies

http://www.timboucher.com/journal/2007...of-shit-about-fairies-cause-whatever/

I listened to your podcast on “all encompasing compassion”

Is a tornado, a bunch of dirt and debris that decided to get together and swirl around?

Is a wave in the ocean a bunch of water and sand and plankton, that decided to get together and take a ride towards shore?

I am thinking it may be that while the demiurge is not really God, the gnostic idea of the real God is not the “real God” either.

I tend to embrace nature. I think a lot of so called “primitivists” are really Christians and “bunny huggers” for lack of a better term.

They have this idealized view of nature of little bunnies holding hands and hopping around with butterflies fluttering overhead. They emphasize all the harmony and unity in nature and ignore everything that is not pleasant, like parasitic wasps and wolves eating deer entrails while the deer is still alive, lions committing infanticide and so forth.

I think that even if nature isn’t the whole picture, maybe its one level of reality, that doesn’t mean it doesn’t explian a lot.

I think it does explain a lot. I think things that totally contradict principles of nature are probably bullshit.

Yeah, its hard core shit. I didn’t post a link because then I would feel compelled to explain what I take out of it and what I leave out.

I don’t know what I think in terms of “transpersonal” vs. “impersonal”

Maybe, I actually am evil. Maybe being evil is preferring the impersonal to the transpersonal. Even if the underlying reality is transpersonal.

Maybe I am evil, but simply kidding myself thinking I can pull it off, to be seperate.

Maybe pursuing seperateness after further and further diminishing returns, is how evil manifests itself. Maybe there are entities out there with an impossibly huge head start on me and one in which I will never catch up.

maybe I will never be powerful enough to be a seperate entity.

I was reading more of Tim’s links, about the ecology of the self. Maybe its really true, Its illusory we are just a convergence of certian relationships.

Maybe the more of that stuff I read and continue to want to be seperate the more evil I will be.

Or maybe not.

But I think there is a lot of predatory bullshit involved with a lot of the “returning to the one” type theology. I don’t want to fall for that.

The Order of the Nine Angels

That’s certainly among the more serious “satanic” shit! I never know when someone’s talking about “Satanism” to which of the many completely conflicting brands they’re referring…

The God behind the major World religions is just an advanced entity manipulating people to its own ends.

The “real” God is impersonal.

I dig, but what I think you will find is that the exoteric streams in major world religions are themselves far more “gnostic” than is generally credited, by either occultists or modern “orthodox”. Guys like Thomas Aquinas and Nicolas of Cusa posit realities scarcely distinguishable in their abstract content from the gnostic cosmology of someone like Basilides. When religions are born, they are invariably heretical by the local standards as their founders reify the transcendent into symbolic language “shocking” enough to mean something. The “egregod” (if you will) comes later and is just part of the ripple in history caused by the initial event. If the demiurge/egregor parallel is correct, the false god clearly has absolutely no power we don’t specifically give it, how can it be manipulating or eating us? WE made it!

ALL major religions are directed towards and from the same end which is not amenable to formalization. The AI scrambles to reify it and this is the egregod. just my 0.02 of course.

Also: do you think the real cause of existence (or the illusion of existence or the illusion of) is better termed “impersonal” or “suprapersonal”?

How do you know its impossible to be independant?

I think there is a point where you may be looking past people thinking they are being independant and seeing that what they do is part of a larger whole.

I am with you there.

I think words are really getting in the way of what *I* am saying, more than you might think.

I am talking about getting past those illusions and then being independant.

That is why I am saying it transcends nirvana.

So yeah, I would think it would be a really hard thing to do. I am thinking I am actually talking about the same thing you are only I see it as being possible.

I am not talking about what you refer to as “The American dream.” James Dean, etc.

I know you are probably thinking I am identifying with my ego, and my physical body, I haven’t figured out its an illusion etc.

I think its partly illusion, and that on a deep level, there is somthing analagous to it.

If there is somthing analagous to the ego, that is not simply isslusion, that is what I want to keep.

You seem to “know” somehow that that can’t be.

I am not convinced that are disagreement lies in me arguing from a position of ignorance.

I think it may be that were are on a similar path and that at a certian point these paths will signifigantly diverge.

To be more specific, I have read online articles by “Dragon Rouge” and “The Order of the Nine Angels”

I am most interested in their metaphysics, and cosmology. I am not interested in any of the other activities they might engage in.

I might take a correspondence course with Dragon Rouge.

I’d say this article here sums up the idea I have about God. The God behind the major World religions is just an advanced entity manipulating people to its own ends.

The “real” God is impersonal.

http://www.angelfire.com/ny5/dvera/bgoat/essays/What-Is-S.html

My pet theory is that what most people think of as God or the Creator is more likely to be closer to what we might call Satan. Somthing that wants to eat us on a soul level.

Yes, this is the gnostic perspective and similar to what I have been talking about as well. For the purposes of simplicity though, I have collapsed the “Unknowable Alien God” of gnosticism back onto the more common Christian usage of the word God, just to help confuse the issue further. We need more confusion about important things and less confusion about things that don’t matter.

The idea I have is that this whole thing of being “seperated from God” and going on a quest to be “one again” is actually a ruse to get us to voluntarily agree to be eaten.

Well, as you said, that’s just an idea. A think that has become a thingk…

So if this is the case trying to get rid of the Ego or the self (if those are analagous terms) would be a big mistake.

“I” don’t follow “you” here. If I may offer a word of advice. I’m sure it won’t help. There’s actually nothing to “figure out” here. I’m not saying “don’t think” or “don’t question” but I have found that the road of “making sense of it all” gets you nowhere but into this ever tightening loops I referenced above. Or to put it back into my language game: the AI wants to narratize experience into something that makes sense. It balks at its own death or absence in this regard. The first step you can take though is getting it under control by directing the types of narratives you allow it to tell and the types that you do not allow it to tell. Then witness the effects these different types of narratives you allow it to tell have on your own body, your well-being, your state of mind and your emotional connection to everything.

Freedom to me, is doing somthing unique and creative on my own terms and for my own purpose and not an action that is part of a larger purpose controlled by someone or something else.

Well, good luck with that. It is the American dream, after all. Unfortunately, there is no such thng as action which is not part of something larger. It’s not about control. It’s about ecosystems. I think I talked about this here:

http://www.timboucher.com/journal/2006...dcast-12-all-encompassing-compassion/

You certainly shouldn’t take my word for anything though, as words are just programs to control and manipulate. But then, control and manipulation are essential to the creation of art…

If there were no big bang, and self existence is possible, I would be saying “Fuck you” to a usurper.

The usurper, in this fictional scenario, would then very likely proceed to grant you your wish of fucking it and then you could either enjoy that experience or not…

If there is some underlying intelligence pervading everything and gives us our being and allows us freedom, to that I would say “thanks.”

I call this “smarticles” or variously, “smarticules.” I visualize them as tiny globes with smily faces painted on them wearing graduation hats and with a light bulb going on above each of them. They like to get together in groups, hold hands and tell each other stories which they then do interpretive dances to.

If there were no big bang, and self existence is possible, I would be saying “Fuck you” to a usurper.

If there was a big bang and there is a source that caused us to seperate and then wants to suck as all back into itself, I would say “Fuck you” to that.

If there is some underlying intelligence pervading everything and gives us our being and allows us freedom, to that I would say “thanks.”

Spiritual Satanists.

I’d be really curious to get your take on this:

The Guru papers

Its going against the tide. Being defiant, refusing to be assimilated. Being independant.

I want to say, I think its a very hard thing to do. I don’t think it comes easy. I think its a real long shot.

I think its easy to thing one is doing this while actually decieving one self.

But its my goal.

I see elements of this in “The Left Hand path” or what I have read of it. This is a state beyond “Nirvana” it transcends nirvana.

To be self existent.

If there is a remote chance of this being possible, this is what I want to do/be.

My pet theory is that what most people think of as God or the Creator is more likely to be closer to what we might call Satan. Somthing that wants to eat us on a soul level.

The idea I have is that this whole thing of being “seperated from God” and going on a quest to be “one again” is actually a ruse to get us to voluntarily agree to be eaten.

The entity posing as our creator is not our creator, our origin is not with it. There is no returning, its simply an entity making itself more powerful by consuming energy, through consuming beings composed of energy.

Its all a lie.

So if this is the case trying to get rid of the Ego or the self (if those are analagous terms) would be a big mistake.

I mean maybe if our identity is made up partly of illusions and arbitrary things, those would be good to drop, but there just might be some core there that is truly unique. That is good to keep. Its all we have.

It mat be that there is no creator, only a self existent universe composed of energy organizing itself in various ways. There are entities manipulating this energy in various ways.

This “God” is a usurper. Posing as creator. Merely a manipulator. This would be more likely to be the one trying various expiriments and having some go well and some poorly. Basically making it all up as it goes a long.

I am hesitant to place any trust in that entity. Especially if it were possibible for me to have an identity indpendant of it.

I’d rather have freedom.

But what the hell is freedom?

To me my quest is to get past all this stuff that makes me part of other beings/entities plans and have my own plan.

But what the hell is your own plan?

Do my own thing.

But what the hell is your own thing?

I deeply resent being a pawn, even if its the truth.

But what the hell is a pawn? What the hell is the truth?

I’ve been reading some stuff by Satanists.

Which kind?

I know you are using the Noah thing as an analogy for somthing else

http://www.esoteric.msu.edu/VolumeVI/divineark.htm
http://www.passtheword.org/Jane-Lead/trefaith.htm

I don’t think anyone should read what I’m saying.

Is it ok if we listen to what you are writing?

It just strikes me that this “God” that’s like “Oh, well Back to the drawing board” is not a being that inspires awe within me. But if that is the real God, I’ll accept it.

But, I mean, making my life’s goal be achieving some kind of unity with this being is not awe inspiring either.

I’d rather have freedom. To me my quest is to get past all this stuff that makes me part of other beings/entities plans and have my own plan. Do my own thing.

So, I know you are using the Noah thing as an analogy for somthing else and so am I. I deeply resent being a pawn, even if its the truth.

So if the goal after breaking free of all this stuff that makes me a pawn is to then be all buddy buddy with this “source” I am kind of feeling like I want to say “Fuck you” to the source.

I don’t think anyone should read what I’m saying.

I just like to look at the purty pictures.

Everyone hug your dog anad/or cat if you have one

then kiss your computer screen.

…and laugh knowing the universe is laughing with us not at us.

I may have been a little ornery last night due to the fact that
I injured my head (no big deal) sledding off my roof.

I didn’t mean to come off like a power hungry pig…

In reality power is the last thing in the world I desire.

Read and react… that’s really all i’m capable of.

no ‘circular’ clash of egos here or really any clash at all… though i do like the band.

; )

discussing the end of an idea is the same thing as discussing the idea, because it forces you to keep talking about it, even if you’re talking about the end of it.

It occurs to me that picking at individual words or discussing concepts overlong may result in what one might term an open ‘conceptual lesion.’ Its the mental/ conceptual equivalent to continually picking at a scab, thereby impeding the healing (or realization) process. I believe that cuts to the heart of why it is that dwelling on the past (whether it be reliving the ‘good times’ or dwelling on past hurts) is such a hindrance to living life in the ‘now.’ Sometimes stuff just needs to be left alone so that natural processes can take their course.

That’s not to say that contemplation and/ or meditation on the personal level has no value… just that when two or more folks get into a ‘discussion’ without a common understanding of where it began or where it might be headed… or worse yet, they begin to opine without having an informed grasp of their own take on the matter… things can devolve rather rapidly… & pointlessly at that… I believe that is the danger of getting caught up in our own wordplay. We club others over the head with where we think the discussion ought to lead, instead of thoughtfully considering what has already been said… let alone whether we have something worthwhile to contribute.

Internet discussions exacerbate this condition even more so than ‘real-world’ discussions because so much subtle subtext (body language, vocal inflection, etc.) is missing in the exchange. It takes the magic of language (words) & divorces them from a shared face-to-face context. Floating about on their own in the Otherworld of the Interweb, buoyed by the phosphorescent ether of a monitor’s glow, words devoid of contextual nuances behave like volatile elements, waiting to catalyze (ie - be given context) upon contact with a suitable reactive agent (a discarnate discussion partner). Words themselves are daimonic, dependent upon us to give them form & meaning.

Which brings to mind the following example from a day in the life of your truly: when my lady & I are having a particularly boisterous verbal row, the very thing that caused the disturbance is often what continues to fuel the ensuing volatile discussion in a pointlessly circular clash of egos. The urge to be ‘right’ is a tenacious beastie; however, we’ve learned, or are in the process of learning, the value of shutting up, getting un-stuck, & moving beyond the point of contention… simply focusing on working together… which is far more satisfying. We’re learning.

Not sure if any of this makes sense in the context of this discussion, but it made sense to me to interject it at this juncture.

Thanks for sharing your thoughts Tim. They’ve led me to plenty of my own…

; )

Q (no star trek reference intended… I just like the look of the letter)

That’s too bad! Q was an awesome foil to the crew of the Enterprise, particularly Picard/Morpheus the Computerator.

You never know WHO is reading and HOW the written word
is interpreted.

That’s pretty much the point. We can’t fear that. All we have, all we can do is share reference points with each other, invite other people to get onto our ark.

Set me straight–am I reading too much into things in thinking you’re implying the end of this journal?

I’d rather maintain the mystery but it is some kind of end, certainly.

You never know WHO is reading and HOW the written word
is interpreted.

That is all

Greatest respect Mr. Boucher and friends,
Q (no star trek reference intended… I just like the look of the letter)

Set me straight–am I reading too much into things in thinking you’re implying the end of this journal?

You’re thoughts on cults and cult-ure are spot on and goes with something I’m working on right now. I’m still using the gnostic terminology of Archons to describe what you call the AI, but I’m also beginning to find the concepts of bhakti yoga to be useful for me…or at least, it seems to go easier (if that’s the right word, and it isn’t!) with the way I’m built.

Peace, Tim.

And thanks for an inside perspective on Scientology and the self-investigative encouragement, Andrew.

I’m not confused but you’re putting this out there to a LOT of people.

Would “you” know you were confused if you were?

What’s wrong with being confused? The world constantly confuses the shit out of me. So I make up stories to help me not get so fucking freaked out by it.

you are one of the good ones. I’ve known that since I started reading.

Except you don’t know whether or not I’m an axe-murderer in real life

Pardon me a deer is wandering through my back yard
I must observe.

Honestly much more worthwhile than reading my website. I don’t think anyone should read what I’m saying.

I don’t want to debate you Tim… actually I’d prefer to work with you.

I wasn’t trying to debate. I was talking - not necessarily to you, just talking. Anyway, debating can be working with me, as a foil where necessary.

I love your blog Tim.

I love the glossolalia you employ.

under this post states ‘posted in…’

I’m not the first person to use the A word

Nor will I be the last.

But at this point, as I know you agree, the more utilitarian A word would be ‘Aversion’
or how to avert the …

I know you’re working hard at this very subject… So am I.
Keep it up.

Just remember glossolalia can confuse. I’m not confused but you’re putting
this out there to a LOT of people.

~Don’t forget to understand exactly what you put on the tree~
~the ween brothers~

I don’t want to debate you Tim… actually I’d prefer to work with you.

I’ve been following your blog for quite some time.

Pardon me a deer is wandering through my back yard
I must observe.

Really… don’t get me wrong Mr. Boucher, sir… you are one of the good ones.
I’ve known that since I started reading.

: )

http://www.timboucher.com/journal/2006/09/02/not-my-apocalypse/
http://www.timboucher.com/journal/2006/09/04/post-apocalypse/
http://www.timboucher.com/journal/2005...youre-all-gonna-die-prophecy-protest/

Also, I’d like to point out a potential logical flaw in what you said above: discussing the end of an idea is the same thing as discussing the idea, because it forces you to keep talking about it, even if you’re talking about the end of it.

Insight #1 via the Q ~ we don’t need your stinking apocalypse.

Or is that what we are discussing?

Just say no to the end times.

…simple as that.

GLASS and THE MACHINES OF GOD
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gt6tTK4-e9w

i just saw what is there daze ago and seemingly pleased myself to minimalisims
& microcosums of coarse now i’m using a ShopVAC to collect dust, skin, hair, dirt & dog shit

yoursite is worth the dimes in the internet (juke)(box) better here than an (X)(box)

“If you are not nearly frothing at the mouth, not nearly screaming, laughing, crying, panicking, feeling blasts of irrational love and feeling yourself wavering in and out of existence, then chances are you are probably not going through it.”

“Non-abiding…refers to the continual practice (i.e., not just while one is sitting in zazen) of being aware of the stoppings and goings of the mind, and avoiding being tricked and ensnared by the web of mental constructs that one continually weaves for oneself. The ongoing proliferation of these deluded constructs has as its causes and conditions not only in the thought processes in which one is engaged at the present moment, but also the flowing river one’s entire multi-lifetime load of previous karma. And not only one’s own karma, but the linguistic/karmic flow of one’s entire culture….

“A vitally important message of the Diamond SÅ«tra is that non-abiding should not be misconstrued as a nihilistic sort of practice. On the other hand, it also does not imply simply giving free reign to one’s thoughts, since then, one is certainly going to get further wrapped up in the dense web of one’s own spinning. Non-abiding necessitates the kind of moment-to-moment attentiveness that is awesome in its required subtlety. …

“In a sense, it is simple: the thoughts, labels, signs, characteristics, etc., that we associate with given things, are nothing more than labels, and should not be imputed as the reality of the thing in itself, thus becoming reified objects of our desire and dislike. Yet there is also such a thing as thinking and seeing correctly, and it is permissible, nay, necessary, to use these notions, signs, and labels to function in daily life…

“Thus, Buddhism (and any other responsible contemplative tradition) cannot condone any attitude that recommends negating, or running away from any of the experiences that impinge upon our consciousness. Nor can it maintain that there is any such thing as a fixed, or final truth. As the Daodejing says, “The Way that can be taught is not the true Way.”

Gaté, gaté, paragaté, parasamgaté. Bodhi! Svaha!

But the point is I tend to agree that the computerator/Morpheus is not the seat of consciousness or “the Self” either.

I think I know what you mean. I’ve found myself interested in the ego as defined by Jung and in Buddhism, and this idea that there is one step back of “I”. I understand meditation as an attempt to quiet the “I” and get back to the “root” conciousness.

I don’t know what I’m talking about. But interesting stuff nonetheless!

Simple fact is, there was an explosion of cults in the 60’s, 70’s and onward and there’s a reason for this, that I can tell: there are some standard, verifiable and honestly *usable* techniques out there which they are all roughly based on but run in different ways. The only cult most of us are used to though is cult-ure. But it uses the same tricks.

As for consciousness, that’s “Morpheus” or “the thetan” in Scientologese. In this model, the mind does not have “consciousness,” only the spirit does. Hubbard called it the “awareness of awareness unit.” As such, the thetan is the only one who can effectively defeat the reactive mind (auditing is just asking the thetan to “look at the pictures”) and so in this model it is “Morpheus” and “Neo.”

Very interesting. I *think* I know what you’re talking about here. I’ve taken to calling it the computerator (or the operateer). I’m having trouble finding the language to quite describe it, but it relates to Jesus saying “call no man father” and where he says:

http://www.timboucher.com/journal/2006/11/21/call-no-man-your-father/

11 But he that is greatest among you shall be your servant.

12 And whosoever shall exalt himself shall be abased; and he that shall humble himself shall be exalted.

But the point is I tend to agree that the computerator/Morpheus is not the seat of consciousness or “the Self” either. Last night after writing this and drifting off to sleep, I began to think of it like this: what we call the self is really nothing more than a location (reference point) for feelings, sensations and perceptions to happen within. You don’t feel a certain way - it feels you. Since it is touching you though, you feel it in turn as you would when someone touches your skin…

Here’s my understanding, based on a decade’s involvement. Just one man’s opinion.

You’re assessment of auditing is pretty close. The goal of Dianetics is not to smash the reactive mind so much as it is to take the contents of the reactive mind and refile them into the analytical mind. So all those “files” are still there, they are just under the knowing control of the “Morpheus.” You could compare it to reformatting a hard drive, if it were possible to reformat only corrupted partitions while cleaning up and refiling corrupted files. Something like that.

There are two parts to the mind in this model, the analytical and reactive. I suppose the reactive could be called an “A.I.” mind, as it can run on its own, independent of “Morpheus.” The analytical mind is like Google. This is the more traditional concept of “mind” or “consciousness” or even “brain.” Another term for it in Scientology is “Standard Memory Bank” or “Standard Bank.” So in the course of auditing, a connection to reality is maintained in the form of this analytical mind. Indeed, auditing serves to beef up the analytical mind by cleaning out the swamp of the reactive mind and freeing up the mental functions that are stuck in it.

As for consciousness, that’s “Morpheus” or “the thetan” in Scientologese. In this model, the mind does not have “consciousness,” only the spirit does. Hubbard called it the “awareness of awareness unit.” As such, the thetan is the only one who can effectively defeat the reactive mind (auditing is just asking the thetan to “look at the pictures”) and so in this model it is “Morpheus” and “Neo.”

The training routines are an interesting addition to all of this. They were originated to improve the auditing skills of Hubbard’s students, and deal primarily with communication. Clearly, they do more than just make a person into a good communicator, as there is such a thing called “Therapeutic TRs.” It sounds like you are addressing “Bullbait” specifically here. Keep in mind that “TR0 Bullbait” is only one of eleven TRs, and is only supposed to train an auditor to be there and confront a person who may be going batshit crazy himself. If it breaks down anything in the auditor it’s the automaticities that come into play when confronted by something that’s not easy to experience.

In terms of memetics or what have you, what does all of this “really do” to a Scientologist? Well, depends on who you ask. For me, TRs have made me a better communicator, have made me more patient in the face of stark, raving lunatics, and make me feel more competent as a counselor.

I hope this didn’t serve to confuse matters more. Like I said, just one guy’s opinion. Obligatory book plug: “Diantics: 55″ deals with communication and its application in auditing, and there’s a booklet out there titled “Communication” that describes the TRs. Feel free to snag the booklet, grab a friend, and try out the TRs yourself.

Tim, I’ve been reading you for a year or so, and I am fascinated by your spiritual journey. If you ever have any questions about Scientology, I’d be happy to try and answer them.

There’s fella by the name of Noah
Built an ark
Everybody knows he built an ark.
You see
What Noah do? Well he built an ark
But very few people know about
The conversation that went on between the Lord and Noah
You see Noah was in his rec. room
Sewing away, he was making a few things for the home there.
He was a good carpenter

Whoompa, whoompa, whoompa, whoompa
Noah!
Somebody call?
Whoompa, whoompa, whoompa
Noah!
Who is that?
It’s the Lord, Noah
Right!

Where are ja?
What you want? I’ve been good.
I want you to build an Ark
Right!
Whats an Ark?
Get some wood build it
300 cubits by 80 cubits by 40 cubits
Right!
Whats a cubit?
Lets see a cubit…I used to know what a cubit was
Well don’t worry about that Noah
When you get that done
Go out into the world and
Collect all of the animals in the world by twos
Male and female, and put them into the ark
Right!
Who is this really?

What’s going on?
How come you want me to do all these weird things?
I’m going to destory the world
Right!
Am I on Candid Camera?

How you gonna do it?
I’m gonna make it rain for a thousand days and drown ‘em right out
Right!
Listen to this, you’ll save water
Let it rain for 40 days and 40 nights
And wait for the sewers back up
Right!

I just wondering,
What would be the effect of an Ark on the average neighbour?
Now, here’s a guy going to work, 7 o’clock in the morning
Noahs next door neighbour and he sees the Ark.
Hey!
You up there!
What you want?
What is this?
It’s an Ark
Aha
You wanna get it outta my driveway?
I gotta get to work
Listen, what this thing for anyway?
I can’t tell you
Hahahahaha!
Well, I mean can’t you give me a little hint?
You wanna a hint?
Yes, please
How long can you tread water?
Hahahah!

‘Course Noah had a heck of a job really
He had to go out and collect
All the animals in the world, by two’s
Two mosquitoes, male or female
And, uh, he had to keep telling the rabbits
Only two, only two, only two.
So we find Noah pulling up the last two animals
Two hippos and he’s really in a hurry to get em up
Because hes afraid that the Lords gonna call him
And ask him to do something else
And his nevers are shot
This is one heck of a job for a man 600 years old

So we find him pulling up the two last hippos
And of course the Lord does call him there
Com’on fat hippos hurry up
Com’on will you please?
Noah!
What? What you want?
Gotta take one of those hippos out
And bring in another one
What for?
‘Cause you got two males down there
And you need to bring in a female
I’m not bringin’ nothin’ in
You change one of em’
Com’on you know I don’t work like that.

Well I’m sick and tired of this I’ve had enough of this stuff
I’ve been working all day
Working on it for days and days
I’m sick and tired of this
Noah!
Yeah?
How long can you tread water?

Yeah, well I got news for you
I’m sick and tired of this whole mess
The whole neigbourhood’s out there laughing at me
They’re all having a grand time
At good old old Noah there
I went out there at my best friend Larry
I’ve been talking to the Lord, Larry
Larry said
Oh, really
Yeah yeah
Lord, Larry, Larry, Lord
You walked off laughing
And I hear ‘em all laughing at me
You know I’m the only guy in this neighbourhood with an Ark?
People around here laughing
Picket signs walking up and down
I’m sick and tired of this stuff here
People walking around here
How you doing Tarzan?
How’s everything up there?.
Sick and tired of this mess here
You supposed to know all and see all
You let me go out there
And bring in a pregnant elephant
You give me no manual for delivery or nuthin’
Never told me the thing was pregnant
There’s good old Naoh waitin’ underneath the elephant there
Brrrrroooooooooom
Right on top
Sick and tired of this mess here
Had enough all this stuff
For you runnin’ around
You supposed to know all and see all
Like I said before
You let me go out there and do all this stuff here
You never even looked in the bottom of that Ark
Have you looked down there?
No?
Who’s gonna clean up that mess down there?
That’s me
I tell you I’ve had enough of this stuff
I tell you what I’m gonna do
I’m letting all these animals out
And I’m gonna burn down this Ark
And I’m going to Florida somewhere
‘Cause you haven’t done nothin’
I’m sick and tired of all this mess
You foolin’ around
And you haven’t done nothing!

And you got it rainin’
It’s not a shower is it?
Ok Lord me and you right
‘Cause I knew it all the time

- Bill Cosby

I’ve never even been in one!

Sole judge of truth, in endless error hurled:
The glory, jest, and riddle of the world!

Look on my Works ye Mighty, and despair!

I have words for some of these things but they don’t make any sense. I don’t have the words ‘AI mind’. But I do have the word ‘dragon’, which serves me very well. In my own head, mind you… if I went around talking about dragons people would think I was a crazy person. Let’s instead talk about an organising force, a creature of the imagination (literally, formed by and part of the imagination), very powerful, and which hides its presence. Let’s talk about something dangerous and yet subservient to us. It’s been persecuted throughout history yet has value. Let’s talk about things that hide because they’re scared.

Let’s go up on a hill and take a look at a city and wonder how all that stuff got to be in that one place. Then let’s give it a name. If I look straight at it I won’t see it. But out of the corner of my eye I can sense it.

Looking for spiritual progression is something I think I really wanted to do back in the day. Now I simply believe that looking is a waste of time. The whole ‘don’t name it’ thing really rubbed off on me.

It seems that any sense of accomplishment in this most hidden field has come to me most via the doing. The mind plays the tricks, and if I don’t use it, the tricks don’t work, right?

This is also somewhat indicative of being a boring earth sign pragmatist, but it has me jumping for joy. I added this part to give it a more flavor.