While trying to find an answer to your problems I Googled Humboldt and Amherst amongst other words. I found nothing of value until I stopped looking. Then I found this. I can only see part of this site so I can’t say whether or not it’s worth spending a lot of time investigating. This woman seems to live near you and went to college in Amherst. Not much but I can’t get away from this site until I put it here. Hope it helps.

BTW, really good post.

If you feel stupid then feel stupid. Don’t apologize or fish for help on it, just own up to it. It’s a lot surer path to release from it.

I was writing stream of consiousness… When I said that it was more of thinking about if there really was a purpose in writing a stream of consiousness comment.

Actually, that’s really interesting. Can U say more?

If anyone gets anythig from this comment, please say so so I don’t feel stupid.

If you feel stupid then feel stupid. Don’t apologize or fish for help on it, just own up to it. It’s a lot surer path to release from it.

Somebody just gave me a copy of THE FOUNTAIN, for what it’s worth.

The Green Man, I believe, is the Man in whom the Green Heart Chakra has been smashed open irrevocably.

That’s beautiful. It really is. I’ve been reading the Sandman. It’s super cool. That and Clans of the Alphane Moon by PKD. One of the ones i missed when I was blowing through his section in the Library (partly because of this site) a few years back. What the hell are those chakra maps? They remind me of ley lines. I remember reading about ley lines in some unexplained mysteries book, when i was like 9. I wanted so bad to find a map of ley lines. I decided though, that they must have a lot of intesections in both Japan and Greath Britain. There are so many paralles between the two. I love the tying things together thing you do. It’s why I like your site. Same with the Sandman. It ties every fiction together, and reality. Neil Gaiman gets some mad points. I would definetly want to talk to him about spiritual/religious/occult stuff. Just in endless nights, I could make so many conections to my life, and other things. Like in the chapter were Dream and this girl are traveling through Space in a bubble. It’s like THE FOUNTAIN. but it puts the fountain in a whole different perspective. If anyone gets anythig from this comment, please say so so I don’t feel stupid.

Oh, I like the pictures a lot now. I didn’t get them before, but now I like them.

the moon.

the phases.

the maps……

the reality.

this website.

mine too.

and me.

and you.

and those who disagree.

http://acc6.its.brooklyn.cuny.edu/~phalsall/texts/taote-v3.html

I keep feeling like this is about to make sense to me where it never quite has before… but like all feelings like that I don’t want to look too hard at it or it’ll go away and hide again. There’s something in the verb ‘to be’: e.g. ‘this is my body, take, eat’… which is altogether spooky. Something in the act of naming. What does it mean, ‘to be’? Several things at once, I think. The word persists when the thing that was named the word need not… in the beginning, then, was the Word…? True names & suchlike. Scary.

Man, U got some crazy-ass tinfoil pictures this time I like the one with the five phases of the moon.

The way demons work - or one subset of them - is very simple. They are like these little purple shapes, a cross between a buzzing fly and a book with its pages fluttering open. What they do is buzz around inside of your head and they try to get you to call them by your own name. That is, their purpose is to get you to identify with them. Falsely of course. But if you attain enough distance from them and the proper perspective, you can see them buzzing round and round. Your mind routinely falls into their traps otherwise.

I have to fight like hell to keep getting back to that perspective, to break out of the routines that keep me from that perspective. Lot’s of work to always make it a new perspective.

This is where you can use the Patronus charm to set up an artificial power source to bleed them off of you. You can also gather them up like Solomon at his Temple. I also experienced sort of a closing fist around them which crushed them into a gem which could then be used to power magic energies

Have you eliminated permanently or at least subjugated any or all of these demons? I find that many of these that buzz around are rooted deeply in my subconscious. For me, many keep popping up, despite lots of work. Working with prety crude tools only so far.

I am not talking about finding out what symbols “mean” either. I am talking about learning how to manipulate them, how to daisy chain them together. Because symbols are the programming language of the True Mind. It is the natural language upon which all things, forms and concepts are written.

I am appreciating this Ro(u/o)t(e) more and more.

The way demons work - or one subset of them - is very simple. They are like these little purple shapes, a cross between a buzzing fly and a book with its pages fluttering open. What they do is buzz around inside of your head and they try to get you to call them by your own name. That is, their purpose is to get you to identify with them. Falsely of course. But if you attain enough distance from them and the proper perspective, you can see them buzzing round and round.

I’ve been lately giving them cartoonish monster voices, if they have their own, they don’t try to use mine. In Sesame St., the fuzzy denizens were called “monsters” so that little kids would not be afraid of monsters anymore.