Make peace with all your demons, acknowledge and keep them close (that doesnt’ mean to willingly let them control you.

Been thinking about this a whole lot. It’s a very fine line. It’s almost like what you need to do is re-assign them to new tasks to which they are better suited. Although the practical concrete application of that is escaping me at the moment.

God yes. I just wrestled with one of them. Talk about convincing! It’s because they know your full history and are keeping track of variables that you have dumped into the background, have forgotten about and which now control you.

Hah! Yes. The deeper you have buried something and denied the existence of within yourself, the stronger the tool they have against you. Make peace with all your demons, acknowledge and keep them close (that doesnt’ mean to willingly let them control you. Know thyself damn it!)

One of their goals is to endlessly distract and exhaust the mind through logically correct but untruthful intellectual games (A lie wrapped in many small truths) alternating with pure nonsense.

God yes. I just wrestled with one of them. Talk about convincing! It’s because they know your full history and are keeping track of variables that you have dumped into the background, have forgotten about and which now control you.

The word “expiate” has been on my mind all day.

I was not at all prepared for this stage of things, the universe speaking back to me in all its facets. I think of it as a very deep, intense feedback loop that is initiated by a state of mind. If your state of mind is ahead of your state of being (i.e., lack of pureness of mind/heart), then this type of journey can be ugly. The bigger the gap, the bigger the problems.

Goddammit now we’re getting somewhere!

There are also helpers that try and counteract the deceivers, but I think they are much harder to follow because they are much more tightly constrained by free will rules (another hypothesis).

Shit yeah, they know things they can’t tell you because telling you would constrain you unfairly by granting you access to information you technically shouldn’t have at this stage of the game.

Which is why you go “crazy” potentially - because you suddenly think the entire universe revolves around you and it gets out of hand REALLY fast.

The “slippery slope” that I mentioned in an earlier reply.

Nevermind the deceptive entities that live around and like to push people into these false sub-worlds. They like to pretend to be Gods so that your words and actions glorfiy them (garmonbozia) instead of the Real Alien Hidden God “hiding” but not really behind them.

The deceivers, yes, the trickster essence, whatever they are, they can be very convincing. One of their goals is to endlessly distract and exhaust the mind through logically correct but untruthful intellectual games (A lie wrapped in many small truths) alternating with pure nonsense. One of their greatest weapons is guilt. A useful charm for me against them is the mantra “the future starts now”. It is powerful now for me I think because I comprehend closely the full meaning of this. 3 years ago it would not have helped me because it was just a nice saying that I had read and heard. The only constant is change, important to remember.

I was not at all prepared for this stage of things, the universe speaking back to me in all its facets. I think of it as a very deep, intense feedback loop that is initiated by a state of mind. If your state of mind is ahead of your state of being (i.e., lack of pureness of mind/heart), then this type of journey can be ugly. The bigger the gap, the bigger the problems. The negative entities sense this looped energy and perhaps feed on it (my current hypothesis). Some of us get ahead of where we should be, we don’t have all the tools that we need before entering this state, and it can be dangerous. I think John Nash (A Beautiful Mind) is an example of this, mind domination over heart, and no archetypal tools to get him through without going mad. I have done it twice now, gotten ahead of myself, gone where I was not worthy of going, with very unpleasant consequences. Thankfully I survived and am able to look upon such things now with interest and pleasure mostly although I still sometimes wrestle with “getting my mind wrapped around my experiences”, but this habit is falling away as I realise it is a matter of processing things in the background.

There are also helpers that try and counteract the deceivers, but I think they are much harder to follow because they are much more tightly constrained by free will rules (another hypothesis).

Here you go again, writing faster than I can keep up, I hate/love it. I had written most of the above before you posted your latest.

Charles M. Schulz - “I have a new philosophy. I’m only going to dread one day at a time.”

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The primary colours are three: red earth, green sea, blue sky. The fourth colour is fire, which is gold or darkness, which makes five. These colours are of dragons. The darkness is the hardest to make peace with. The darkness hides the others.

There is also White.

The Red is what we must. The Green is what we should. The Blue is what we’d like. Mr. Blue, you did it right, but you’re still one of them. The Gold and the darkness (Mr. Night) are change: a double-edged sword.

Somewhere, all the colours occur simultaneously.

> It goes something like this, the image sequence. …

Dragons & unicorns v. interesting. How do you capture a dragon in canvas? Guess its like words… they look nothing like what they stand for either. Of course the Word was in the beginning. What is ‘was’? Was not was. Walk the dinosaur.

U ever read any Bone? This guy Jeff Smith he can talk about things this big without saying what they are.

It may take me a while to comment more sensibly on this one. I must spend some time working out what a Pendragon is.

I want to say more but I can’t cos when I frame it in words it stops be-ing what it is.