the timboucher experience

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1. Tim Boucher
   Posted July 29, 2007 at 12:34 pm | Permalink

   http://deoxy.org/egofalse.htm

   The ego is always looking for some trouble. Why? Because if nobody pays attention to you, the ego feels hungry.

   It lives on attention.

   So even if somebody is fighting and angry with you, that too is good because at least the attention is paid. If somebody loves, it is okay. If somebody is not loving you, then even anger will be good. At least the attention will come to you. But if nobody is paying any attention to you, nobody thinks that you are somebody important, significant, then how will you feed your ego?

   Other’s attention is needed.

   In millions of ways you attract the attention of others; you dress in a certain way, you try to look beautiful, you behave, you become very polite, you change. When you feel what type of situation is there, you immediately change so that people pay attention to you.

2. boontdustie
   Posted July 30, 2007 at 3:16 pm | Permalink

   A poem I wrote in college about this girl I had a crush on.

   there reaches
   this devotional stage
   of concentration

   in which the stars and stripes
   decorated ink-wise beneath the
   cuticles of a big toe

   become fanfare nightskies, patriotic
   moonshines of decades ago stupors
   prize fights, longings.

   It is in these daydream seconds
   one begins to fear the face

   so that, like the perfect antonymn
   of Medusa

   your eyes never meet,
   head bowed in
   the thought of, so beautiful

   would rightly
   turn
   to
   stone.

   Withthat said,

   if someone
   grazing granite steps

   came upon a student digging
   through the void of backpack

   and were to hear him
   exclaim:

   “fuck! what am I supposed to do with
   only one chopstick?”

   It seems it would be
   mere second nature,
   a noquestion -

   to then know
   of the desperate need for

   compliment.

3. boontdustie
   Posted July 30, 2007 at 3:20 pm | Permalink

   She really did have these mayan symbols inked beneath her toes - I should ask her about them.

   I actually heard a guy say that when he was coming out of the library. He threw his backpack down
   on the steps all pissed off. It was a good question.