but you are the only Tim Boucher in the world

I’ve encountered a few others actually!

So now can you keep it up for a year or two? Or for the rest of your life even?

Even if I don’t though, it’s okay with me, having seen what I’ve seen. I don’t need anything else.

So now can you keep it up for a year or two? Or for the rest of your life even?

Pax. Kimberly

When it comes down to it, how we react to situations, and how we feel are the things we should exercise the most control over ,that’s if you want to.

This is a massivly trite and cheesy saying, but you are the only Tim Boucher in the world… what more does one need to know. The suffering comes from trying to be something other, or at least feeling like you should be something other.

I’d called been calling it ” true will ” but it means pretty much what you have spoken about here .

I’m glad you have found your truth.

That’s probably about right. My one-time guru recommended giving them up gradually. But hey, if you’ve done it all at once, what the heck! (I guess not having a ‘real job’(TM) helps )

My crazy-ass unicorn dreams are back, which is always a good sign. Must be the strange spiritual moments / encounters with shadows I had over the weekend.

Peace…

I hear you saying through some sort of self discipline and intellectual thinking

This is not an intellectual feat, but it does require self-discipline. You may also consider that “what you hear me saying” and what I am saying could be two different things, depending on your willingness to hear me.

where everything feels right

No, it’s not that everything “feels right” but that I have given up on needing to have things “feel right” - I can simply decide whether its right and act to change it if it’s wrong.

nobody or the world can touch you anymore.

As I maybe didn’t describe clearly enough above: I am more moved by beauty and simple humanity than ever before!

This concerns me and I am afraid you should stop this path before it ends in your own destruction.

Thanks?

For one, you are trying too hard.

At what?

When you try to be perfect,

I’m not trying to be perfect and I know I’m not and will never be.

you will end up with some catastrophic disaster

That will only happen if you decide to let it happen.

or something wierd can happen.

Such as…?

I can understand unbelief, because I have it myself.

Okay, but I don’t unbelieve!

However, i do think you are a very gifted and you have thought it through enough, that you will know the truth when you see it.

Yes, absolutely! And this is the Truth that I have experienced. It has completely transformed my life.

So my prayer for you is that God will be real to you and show you the truth.

That’s very sweet of you. People should pray for each other more, but they should also try to reach out and help one another more and be more direct and precise in their communications as well.

I think I have had that. I also think people can come more fully back into their bodies, into the here and now, become more action oriented and powerful, less spacey and dreamy.

That’s what I think you did Tim, and I certianly don’t thinks its dangerous and scary and that you should be real cautious or anything.

I totally disagree with that feedback. I think because you ran with it, you are doing better than me, because I have been too cautious and tentative and because of that have vacillated more.

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also somatization

Shamans I think from what I read were really on top of this stuff, how it happens to people, what to do to heal it.

They knew powerful people, were healthy, they weren’t aware of the germ theory of disease, but they knew certian people that seemed spacey and out of it, were prone to being sick.

So they came up with the idea that pieces of their soul had left their bodies at different times. The healing involved going into the spirit world and getting them back.

I also can relate a lot to PKD and an essay he wrote about his schizophrenia. I don’t know if he really ever got over it. I know experiences of suffering had a lot to do with his neo gnostic writings.

About the muscle tone thing, I think that’s related to exercizing power in your life. Powerful people usually enjoy robust physical health. I have an uncle that is nearly 100 years old. Tough old bastard. When ever he would give me a hug his muscles were always rock hard.

My Dad is pretty similar. It goes a long with having a certian approach to the world. I suspect a lot of these old fart politicians are like that. The exercize of power energizes their bodies, keeps them strong. That’s what i suspect and you can bring out this effect in your self and instantly change your muscle tone, posture countencance, intensity of your gaze.

Its almost like the physical changes some people are reported to go through that have multiple personality.

I am not trying to say that I have overcome physical pain, nor do I see that as a particularly realistic goal (though I leave open the possibility that my understanding and experience are inadequate in these areas).

From my perspective, the body seems to be neurologically wired to experience pain: primarily as a means of preventing or responding to damage to itself. Pain, in that sense, helps you survive whereas suffering adds no value to your experience of life - not even as a comparative yardstick by which to measure one’s ensuing Joy; the scales that each operate on are simply incompatible.

Or maybe they could end their “existential suffering” then it would put their physical suffering in a different context perhaps make it easier to deal with.

You know what I am saying?

I mean you weren’t suffering like a person with AIDS suffers, not in the physical sense, but probably people with AIDS can have existential suffering too, along with it and can overcome that.

But at the same time, tricky as it is, its also the single most important thing in the world. We NEED this. This is THE answer.

A good feeling is currently in my heart. Gracias.